Take my heart back

June 22, 2012

Saw one of our photos earlier today. T’was taken in Dusit Thani hotel when our class had our diplomatic dinner last year (2011). I was wearing that goofy smile, oblivious to what will happen after a year of that same month. I have even printed a copy of that photo, and wrote:

What lies behind us,

and what lies before us

are tiny matters compared

to what lies between us.

It was romantically put at the time. However, it seems that distance has its way on creeping between two people and wrecking havoc on a relationship. In the end, what lied between us (distance) was a big matter, after all.

From one tragic story to another. Here’s my favorite song from the movie, “If Only”.

Take my Heart Back – Jennifer Love Hewitt

T’ll be alright
You said
Tomorrow
Don’t you cry
Don’t you she’d a tear
When you wake up
I will still be here
When you wake up
We’ll battle all your fears
And now I’ll…

Take my heart back
Leave your pictures on the floor
Steal back my memories
I can’t take it anymore
I’ve cried my eyes out
Oh, and now I face the years
The way you loved me
Vanished all the tears

Just a little more time was all we needed
Just a little time for me to see
Oh, the light that life can give you
Oh, how we get such a free
So now I’ll…

Take my heart back
Leave your pictures on the floor
Steal back my memories
I can’t take it anymore
I’ve cried my eyes out
Oh, and now I face the years
The way you loved me
Vanished all the tears

Go. Move forward. Heal yourself. Find solace in music.

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8 thoughts on “Take my heart back

  1. I know what you mean about distance since I’ve hoped and lost because of it too. (last 2010, only some time before yours bloomed) And I must say it took me too long to forget, because it was some sort of love which I’ve never had before (which I think you can relate with). I guess, we’ll be carrying their memories always.

    Hopefully you’ll be able to use that love you had to inspire you.

    Couldn’t help but post since I feel you here…

  2. Hi, M Castro.

    Thank you for your reply on my entry. Your comment made me cry. I am currently at my desk in the office, and I’m silently weeping here. I am sorry for your lost, too. I feel your grief. Like yours, mine was also special. It was an intercultural, long distance relationship between a Korean and a Filipino. Many will say that the mortality rate of a long distance relationship alone is quite high, but we have survived. But still, in the end, all was lost.

    Like you, I am finding it too difficult to forget the pain and move on. The memories are just too sweet and precious to let go. I hope that in time, I can fully say that I became stronger because of what happened.

  3. I love that song too. It’s bittersweet and heartwrenching. I know how it feels to lose someone you love. But it’s more painful when you know that you could’ve been with that person but you can’t.

    Sometimes you’ve already healed the pain but you haven’t moved on yet. It takes time to forget the pain and get used to the emptiness but it’s more difficult to let go. It happened to me two years ago. I hope you’re all better now.

    1. I feel you here, dongsaeng. When we were together, I felt like I’m living my own Korean drama – like a fairytale. many students in my university envy us because our intercultural relationship was working. But like some Korean drama, we also ended up tragically.

      It’s been almost a year now. I’m not sure if I’m ready for another relationship again.

  4. Been here done that..I experienced the same things and yes it was so hard to forget especially when both family already knew about it but what to do, life must goes on.. just try to be strong every single day….

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