I can still remember the day
You approached me and said
“Can we take a picture together?”
And since then our fates are sealed.
Slowly we became
Meeting frequently, laughing hysterically,
Knowing each other.
Others are here around us, yes
And we are their true friends, yes
But a special bond between us exists.
We are each other’s best friend.
As the calendar turns
And shows its true color,
Changes appear as we
Became more comfortable with each other.
Our friendship teeters on the edge
As hurtful jokes and lashing words
Are said – not thinking,
Not considering our feelings.
And so it begins.
The cold shoulder. No more invitation.
Masked faces. Hidden emotions.
Ignored. Unneeded. Unwanted.
Oh, if only I could turn back time!
Delete those painful words and criticisms,
The joking and bullying.
Taking for granted everything.
I neither deserve your
Forgiveness nor acceptance
Of all my faults and shortcomings.
My transgressions simply run too deep!
So I must distance myself
Away from you, away from everyone
So I will no longer succeed
In hurting you and ourselves.
Watching you from afar
Teasing and playing with your new friends
I know it should’ve been me in there
But now I must not come near.
What a sad sight to see!
Now my tears flow freely
As something inside me breaks,
I didn’t expect it would give this much ache.